I love to walk in fog. November is my favorite month for jogging, cause every time I follow the morning flow of river, I´m lost in complete white. I don´t see a sh*t in front of me, but somehow I experience pure joy and faith.
In life it´s a permanent stage. You´re moving forward but you don´t see anything. Either you believe it will be fine or not, you have actually no idea what future will bring.
Unless you trust your steps and your visons, until you´re positive about yourself and you´re following the flow, it´s all fine. But once you stop to look around or back, you may start hesitating.
It´s the moment when your left hemisphere starts to rule you. Till now you were listening to your intuition and you were embracing things with love and creativity. But once you started applying logic where used to be a place for intuition and faith, you´re lost in white fog. Suddenly you may see thousands of reasons why your journey is wrong.
In one of my favorite Tedx videos is well-know neuroatomist Jill Bolte Taylor talking about how she experienced stroke. In moment when it happened, the link between her left and right hemisphere was interrupted and bridge between two sides was gone. She was lost in pure space of not knowing anything, weird moment of happiness and light. Without cognitive abilities like to feel the size of her body or its moves in space, she started to feel just some esoteric peacefulness and energy. „Imagine what it would feel like to lose 37 years of emotional baggage! (Laughter) Oh! I felt euphoria — euphoria. It was beautiful,“ she said.
This woman, a scientist that is mostly using logic as the most important tool, ruled with her left hemisphere, suddenly experienced pure energy and creative flow of right hemisphere. That world of artists or all the people that use creativity in life and work. Moment of pure energy, power but despite peace.
„It’s next to impossible to be truly creative when you are afraid of shadows,“ writes Arianne Huffington, chief of one of the best well-know magazines on a planet. If it´s said by woman who is daily walking the streets with Hollywood stars, I bet she knows what she´s talking about. „The most stultifying and damaging fear infecting Hollywood is, of course, the fear of failure, because it keeps you from taking risks – and risk is an essential element of creativity and art,“ she adds. It´s the same everywhere, not only in Holywood. As Arianna sais, failure and fear from it are just two steps on the road to success.
Two sides of one coin. Two hemispheres. Never ending dualism which is so deeply rooted in our daily life. Neale Donald Walsch in his book Conversations with God: An Uncommon Dialogue explains it in this way: there are just two forms of our existence – Love and fear. Love is the creative thought, the highest reality, the only reality. But in relative world where we have to live is also existence of fear inevitable – we need fear to know how great it feels when we create and live with love and courage.